Good morning and happy Thursday! I’m here today with a brand new fitness related post, which borders on wellness too. It’s definitely one of my most honest posts, and I actually really like the idea of having some “real talk” every once in a while. I love when I see others doing this because it makes me really feel as though I can relate to them on a more human level. Something other than just seeing the highlights reel of their life on Instagram, or what they have for dinner on Snapchat.
So, starting over… What do I mean by this? Okay, well this week I am going to be starting over my fitness plan. My routine has fallen apart and I’ve been binging on whatever food I can afford/get my hands on lately. You may remember last Summer I did a 6 week program with Recalibrated Bodies, and now that I’m starting a new program with them – I couldn’t be more excited, or relieved. I’m excited because I really want my blog to go in more of a fitness & wellness direction this year, and what better way to help inspire people, than actually walk the walk I talk. (Does that make sense?!) I feel relieved because I am the type of person who adores structure and routine, and I know that Amanda & Daniel are going to give me just that. I remember on my last program, I noticed differences in my physical appearance after one week, I was so delighted! I also had so much more energy and was eating more than I could have imagined – happy days! I have been working off the last program they gave me since last Summer, but now I just feel like a change is needed to shake things up. I’m so excited for this.
My routine fell apart a couple of weeks ago and I struggled so much to get it back. I think for me now, I need a complete change. You know when you kind of start to feel like you’re constantly playing catch up? Like you can never get on top of anything? This was me all over. I wasn’t sleeping well, I wasn’t exercising, I was eating crap, I wasn’t productive in work etc etc. Then I got stressed about all of these things which just led to me doing them over and over again. It was the perfect vicious circle, and one that it took something not so nice happening to make me realize that something had to change. I’ll tell you all about that not so nice something now…
I mentioned before that my Dad became very sick very suddenly in December. I realize now that I didn’t cope well with the whole situation at all. I’m going to try and nutshell everything so that it makes sense, and that you can try and understand the whole sequence of events that lead me to where I am right now in wanting to start this new plan. I’m not going to go into the ins and outs of exactly what happened because it didn’t happen to me, but what I will say is that he was the unluckiest and luckiest person in the world all at once. He contracted an extremely dangerous disease which quite literally shut his body down. Had he not been in the hospital that he was in, with the right doctors around him, at the right time – he would be dead. Coincidentally, my Dad ended up in hospital in New York because he was here for work when he was admitted. While he was in hospital, I spent every day up there with him and my Mum. It was a very draining month for everyone but to honest, the main priority was that he got better. We made sure to do everything in our power to be there for him and each other at all times no matter what. Nothing else took priority in that month. When I look back on it now it doesn’t feel real. We were closer than I can even explain to losing him, and it still makes me panic to think about.
I remember one night coming back from the hospital and I was lying in bed nodding off. I started to feel slight pains in my chest, but just shrugged it off. This proceeded to keep happening every day and night for a number of weeks until I started to really stress about it. I kept ignoring it because at the time it just wasn’t a priority while my Dad was sick…but then it continued after he had made a full recovery and returned home. That, in itself, was stressing me out even more. One day in work it got so bad that I ended up having to leave straight away to get it checked out. I had let it go on for so long and I was so angry at myself for ignoring it. I basically had to get every heart test possible done to make sure that there was nothing wrong because no matter what, the pain wouldn’t leave. If you know me personally, you’ll know that I tend to exaggerate…but let me tell you, this pain was going nowhere fast so you can imagine that the thoughts that were going through my head every day were far from pleasant.
In the end, turned out that while thankfully there was nothing physically wrong with my heart, the pain that I was experiencing was down to stress. After my Dad got better, I felt as though I honestly had nothing to be stressed about, so this just didn’t make any sense to me. My doctor recommended that I try to relax, and start yoga or meditation. In hindsight, this was just what I needed to hear. After things were supposed to get back to normal, I started playing the catch up game. I wasn’t on top of anything in my life because everything had taken a back seat for a number of weeks. I knew I was underperforming in work, I wasn’t sleeping well because I wasn’t eating well or exercising regularly, and like I mentioned at the start of this post, it was a vicious circle.
It’s important to enjoy yourself, but it’s equally important to look after yourself. I was certainly not looking after myself. I ended up costing myself over $1000 in medical bills. I was so convinced that there was something seriously wrong with me that at the time I probably would have paid double this to know that it was just stress that was making me feel the way that I did. I certainly do not have that sort of spare change floating around so this whole experience was a very expensive lesson to learn.
I knew from my past experience with Recalibrated Bodies that if I could just commit to a new program and have the weekly checkins and everything set out in a schedule, that that would be half the battle in starting to feel like myself again. I haven’t even started and I already feel 10 times better than I did. Did I mention how excited I am to start?!
What can you expect
Over the next 8 weeks you can expect to see weekly check-ins with me on my Instagram (@niamh_osullivan) and Snapchat (@niamhos21). I will be updating you on progress with my workouts, food, energy levels, and measurements. I want this to be as honest as possible, because 8 weeks is a long time to stay on track, but I want to show you that it’s doable. I already know that I will be traveling with work towards the end of this program, and will definitely be factoring drinks and nights out in too. Recalibrated Bodies give you all of the knowledge and tips necessary to get you to your goals whilst still living your life as normal.
I really hope that this post made sense and was worth the read. I think I started over about 5 times when writing this post, but I just really wanted to make sure that I was getting everything across that I wanted to. I hope you’ll enjoy the the updates and will feel inspired to take better care of yourself too, if you need to.
Thank you for reading!
Photos by Claire Petersen